Walk A Fine Line

WALK A FINE LINE 

One fine day I got a call from a lady, as I picked up the call she gave the reference of one of my friend how that’s she got the number. She asked me that have certain queries and she wanted to take my opinion. She told that her husband had beaten her with belt and what she should do. She has a teenage daughter and an 8 years old son. I inquired how long it’s been going on. When she told me the horrible story of this abuse and violence going on since beginning and in front ofkids, I was stunned and shocked on her tolerance. I asked her that next time if he do that immediately get out and raise the alarm and report in the police station. She exactly did that and the guy was warned and now the things are far better.

In second case one lady on a social media contacted me and asked that she need some advice.  she told that after going through my posts she trusted that I am mature enough to guide her to tackle her trouble. She told me that she had love marriage 7 years back and have a daughter. And she lives separately. Her husband is abusive and turned out to be a goon as she was not knowing earlier. he is not ready for divorce and asked me what is the legal course to go for. I suggested according to my knowledge. But this is again a case of fragile relationship. 

              A lady again in a marriage made it a habit to get beaten grievously in a marriage of 17 years. The injuries were as visible as like a knocked out boxer. Even after convincing to report it to the police she was reluctant for the sake of kids. 

             In as many cases there are lot of differences over so many subject that it is impossible to live under one roof. The bitterness once developed is hard to erase. The relationship is established after bonding various parameters like mentally attachment, emotional dependence, social recognition, fulfilment of financial needs, physical intimacy, space and time to each other and many much more thing. 

              These factors all contribute to what we called LOVE. Love doesn’t come by mere saying, one has to take up the responsibility of all such above factors to make it happen. These factors nowadays keep on changing with time as the responsibility increases with commitment or marriage. Nowadays it’s not necessary that if you are courting for many years then things will be as rosy after marriage too. I have seen two cases where even after courting for 8 years and 11 years all hell broke loose immediately after marriage and resulted in divorce. in both the cases the main cause was not sustaining thestress of responsibility and commitment to each other and adjustment in marriage and work.

             The things may start on a good note for a few years even then it’s not a guarantee that it will work. The things change, priorities change and the demand for time,space and materialistic things lead to relations fall apart. The main cause is the everlasting expectations social media and fast forward life. 

              The people are influenced by many books, novels, tele serials and movies in which the relationships are portrayed dramatically and superficially. The people started correlating their personal issues with them and try to solve them in that particular way which resulted into much agony and deterioration. Take the example of Novel “IT ENDS WITH US “by Colleen Hoover popularly known as CoHo. The book describes the abusive and violent relationship between the couple in which the woman suffers but she always made up when he apologised. When it went beyond control they separated legally. But the author released a sequel to the novel with the name “IT STARTS WITH US” which describes how even after divorce she and same story happened again. And this is quite superficial to go back to the person who is abusive and violent as OLD HABITS DIE HARD. Relating with such kind of fictional story is not a good idea. instead try to find out the best things from the book and avoid that if happening.

              In recent movie ANIMAL the protagonist on one hand is ready to kill anyone for his sister’s safety but on the other hand he behaves like an animal literally when his spouse is concerned. The matter is grave as theaudiences made this movie a super hit and the protagonist a role model. That’s matters from where you are drawing lessons and inspiration in relationship.

              Social media also plays an important role in the life of an individual. It is constructive as well as destructive. There has to be a clarity of what are you using it for. People are posting everything and anything on the social platforms like Instagram and Facebook, to the extent that now they are making their kids as clowns to post it there just to get few likes and followers. This over use leads to altercation and differences between two people. There has to be a line and limit for the usage and contents. 

             Another factor which influence the relationship is the interference of the family and folks. It is pertinent to understand that the two individuals who are living together are the master of their lives and they mutually have to take decisions. The people around including parents, siblings and friends always give advice or provoke but the wisdom lies with the person whether to accept or not. Sometimes it’s not necessary that parents too always give you correct advise as we are emotionally, physically and mentally attached to them and rejecting them also make them feel bad but if done considerably it’s beneficial in long run.

             The conclusion is that a person who behaves and take care of others and is good in the eyes of society may not be good for his or her companion as the definition of “GOOD” is different for everyone. 

              Now the question is how I could write so much on such a trivial matter. The answer is that I suffered 14years of bad relationship and as much time in litigation in court. Due to my case I counselled many such cases and resolved them to the logical end. Again I reiterated that it’s better to resolve amicably insisted of suffering endlessly.

             The title is being taken from the song by Paul Ankawhich fits the ethos of this article:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

To know when to leave,
To know when to say goodbye.
Know from the start,
All you can do is try.
You’re taking a chance with the ways of the heart
And that’s when you learn that anything can fall apart.

You know where it leads, the first time you tell a lie
When honesty ends, but you can’t say goodbye.
You’re face to face with the ways of the heart,
You’ve come to the place where suddenly the heartache starts.

Here, where black turns to white
It’s good or it’s bad, wrong turns to right.
But when it’s worth it, babe,
You gotta hang on,
Learn to hang on
You’ll learn what it means
To walk a fine line.

To know when to leave,
To know when to say goodbye,

Know from the start
All you can do is try.
You’re taking a chance
With the ways of a heart
You’ve come to the place
Where suddenly the heartache starts.
Here, where black turns to white
It’s good or it’s bad, wrong turns to right.
But when it’s worth it, babe,
You gotta hang on,
Learn to hang on
You’ll learn what it means
To walk a fine line.

Taking a chance
With the ways of a heart
You’ve come to the place
Where suddenly the heartache starts.
There is a place where black turns to white
It’s good or it’s bad, wrong turns to right.
But when it’s worth it, babe,
You gotta hang on,
You learn to hang on
You learn what it means
To walk a fine line.

Hear it, babyTaking a chance
With the ways of a heart
You’ve come to the place
Where suddenly the heartache starts.
There is a place where black turns to white
It’s good or it’s bad, wrong turns to right.
But when it’s worth it, babe,
You gotta hang on,
You learn to hang on
You learn what it means
To walk a fine line.

There is a place where black turns to white
Whether it’s good or it’s bad, wrong turns to right.
But when it’s worth it, babe,
You gotta hang on,
You learn to hang on
You learn what it means
To walk a fine line

The Chai-vinist Cop

The tea is the most widely consumed beverage after water in the world. All tea comes from the plant Camellia Sinensis. I am one of the teaholic or Theist person among all the consumers in the world. I relish my tea strong and with less milk and more water. Also, I prefer not to add any ingredient except tea leaves to extract the pure brew and taste.

             I inherited this habit since childhood from family. The day started with tea and ended with tea. I hardly seen that any drink other than tea has been served to guests in our home. As I grew up it became an addiction,the first sip I wanted was of tea in the bed, otherwise won’t get up at all . This becomes a habit. People started saying to drink less tea as it is harmful but I didn’t see any whatsoever. Moreover , I started drinking it piping hot such that a little less hot makes me drink it like lukewarm water. Once I was posted in MP and the tea is served there first in a metal jug and then in a cup . I found it a little less hot and asked the maker to serve it directly from pan to cup.

             During exam times it was always tea that kept me awake. The frequency increases in winter for want of more tea to keep warm. But even in summer it’s hardly matters to me . I relish it whenever and wherever. When I reached college I used to take tuition and once I decided to avoid tea and to check the effects what happened. By afternoon I developed a headache and irritation   so much that I stopped at a tea shop and gulped down 3 cups in one go and quenched my thirst.To my surprise I felt good.I knew that I developed an addiction to tea and no road to turn back. The habit of mine now spread far and wide and whenever I visit anyone I started getting  a cup of tea without my askance and still it’s like that and irrespective of time which turned me into a shameless person. And if I sit for half an hour the second cup may also be served. A few of the anecdotes are so hilarious that is worth mentioning:

              I joined CRPF in 1998 and during training somewhere in South India we used to get bed tea but it was in a common thermos for everyone and had to get up to get it. I used to be first among those who got it as if sleeping with the task of getting it before anyone else and again before going to the training ground as the thermos was insulated and most of my colleagues were interested in catching more sleep than for tea. Even when we got the liberty of going out to town I always craved a good cup of tea as it was not good what we used to get in mess. Therefore I always ended up having 5-6 cups before returning to camp.

A tea tasting session somewhere in Assam

 

A layman’s test of the quality of tea

            After training my first posting was at Guwahati. It was 1999 and the Assam was boiling as the insurgency was at its peak.  Tea without milk was popular there and the fresh milk was nowhere to be found as there were hardly any cows or buffaloes there. So it was powdered milk that we relied on. As we couldn’t go out my thirst for tea was quenched in the wet canteen as other sources were time-bound. Though Assam is known worldwide for its best tea.

                During my various postings, I generally depended on mess for tea as posted in difficult areas. In 2007 when I was posted in Naxal affected area of Dantewada ,and life came to a standstill. The movements were only for operations and when one proceeds on leave. However, the invention of tetra-pack milk was a great revolution for the forces in remote areas as ration was purchased once in month, and outside supplies were not allowed due to high-security risk. So now get as much tea as you like anytime. 

An evening with a cup of tea at Pangong Lake 15000ft

            The “Khumaar” of tea grew so much that I started giving the directions and instructions to my buddy how to make my type of cup of tea as I can’t  compromise on quality, texture and sweetness whatsoever. After learning my buddy used to take the command of making tea in his hand even in a shop on the roadside if we were travelling and stopped for a cup of tea. In 2010 I went for election along with troops to Manipur and there the Office Commanding was given the vehicle Pickup for duty. Again my buddy took care of my tea as all the luggage gas stove and cylinder were ever ready with all the ingredients. The moment we stopped for a cup of tea was ready within a minute.

The day starts with a great cuppa

               After that, the troops moved to UP in a special train with all ration, equipment arms and ammunition. Again my buddy proved to be ultra-proactive and made the arrangements by pitching the stove and gas cylinder in one of the general bogies between the two lower seats. Though it was not right to use inflammable material in the train I immediately stopped when I came to know. I asked him to shift it outside whenever the train stops for a longer duration as it was common in special trains and the journey was comfortable till I had the tea now and then.

At Char Dukaan at Musoorie

             As in forces if we are served anything in office or mess on any occasion it is customary to have after the senior most person starts. This was again a pain for me as by the time it is served and senior starts it gets cold (for me at least). So whenever I am comfortable with any senior I used to ask shamelessly whether I may start as it’s getting cold. 

With beautiful Winterline and a cutting chai

            During my sojourn in Assam for 11 years I was served all kind of expensive teas by the tea garden in the vicinity as Assam is known for world-class tea like green tea, purple tea, orthodox and most common CTC (Cut, Twirl, Churn) but the thirst quenched only after having “kadak” CTC tea.

Layman’s Test for quality of Tea

Layman’s Test for quality of tea: The residue of tea must be checked and if its texture is from brown to golden the better it is and if it’s from brown to Black the quality is inferior.

              After putting 21 years in forces I joined hospitality industry and the tea is always in abundance. Whenever there is a meeting or discussion the tea is served . Even the inter departmental differences later settled over a cup of tea and I am the pioneer. A LOT CAN HAPPEN OVER A CUP OF TEA (make it two++++ for me).

Books and chai -a deadly combo

             The journey of tea continues as by the time sitting in the office and writing this and gulped down 6 cups already since morning making my fellow colleagues also addicted.

Myth: Tea is injurious to health .

Fact : I believe sugar makes it bad so use less sugar or drink sugarless . If someone is having allergy with milk drink ‘Lal Chai’ means without milk. The number of antioxidants remains the same whether you add milk to it or not.

Myth: Green Tea is better than black tea.

Fact: Both contain powerful and beneficial antioxidants. Tea leaves turn green or black after going through oxidation or fermentation process. During this process, the antioxidants in green tea such as catechins, are converted into the theaflavins, which are found in black tea.

A fuel to fire

 

 

              

 

               

Ladakh: The land of High Passes

This is my first solo trip to Ladakh now the Union Territory situated at an altitude of 12000 ft with Leh as its capital.

Ladakh is now the union territory and falls in the east of the greater Kashmir region. It has two districts headquarters Leh and Kargil. Ladakh is strategically located with borders with Tibet and Himachal Pradesh. Hence it has a strong presence of defence forces.

Ladakh is well connected by road and flights from New Delhi. On 7th Sept I took an Indigo flight from New Delhi to Leh at 0940 hrs and reached by 1100 hrs approx . The airport at Leh is highly guarded and no Photography zone . I checked in a small homestay owned by one Mr Thupsen ji called ZeeJeed Palace, 15 min drive from airport on Shanti Stupa Road.

Mr Thupsen ji

Mr Thupsen was courteous enough to welcome me personally and offered me a. Cup of tea in his residence. The room was clean and a breathtaking view . The home stay offered simple and hygienic meal. There are no dearth of home stays and hotels ik Ladakh for that matter . People are courteous and simple . It is advised to rest on the day of arrival to get acclimatised and not to exert too much as it’s situated at a high altitude of 10000 ft approx and oxygen level is less.

Zeejeed Guest House

But being a force personnel I didn’t sit and after taking a nap for 1 hr I got out to explore Shanti Stupa which is located nearby my place . It is a white domed stupa constructed by Japanese Bhikshu Gyonomo Nakamura in 1991 . I took the walk to the place via road or one can climb the stairs . It’s situated from where we have a breathtaking view of Leh.

Shanti Stupa, Leh

After coming back from there I retired to my room and had my dinner of simple Dal roti sabji. That’s the end of Day 1.

Day 2 Started after breakfast. My driver guided me to the tour of some must visit place in the vicinity of Leh. First we went to Hall of Fame , which is a museum run by Indian Army. Hall of Fame is a rich tribute to the soldiers of various armed forces who had sacrificed their lives in safeguarding the nation. It also gives glimpses of war fought with Pakistan and China by pictures displayed . It also gives the details of the life and difficulties of the soldiers who are deployed at the highest battlefield of the world, Siachen.

Chronological History of Ladakh

Magnetic Hill: My next stop was Magnetic Hill which is 8 km from Leh . It gives the illusion that the vehicles are moving uphill but it’s going downhill actually.

The line where you can feel the Illusion

Sangam: Ahead of Magnetic Hill is Pather Saheb Gurudwara which has the legend that Guru Nanak Dev Ji resided here during his journey. The anecdote is below.

Sangam: Ahead of Pather Sahib Gurudwara i went for Sangam which is the confluence of Zanskar and Indus River . One can do the rafting here. In between there was the University of Ladakh too.

Here day 2 ended . But not before I met aan amazing couple in the evening in Leh Bazar who runs rooftop Chaupati Cafe . They are young couple from Madhya Pradesh . I asked how they ended here and the story interested me for the next 1 hour or so. The couple decided to give up their corporate job and decided to do something for the people of Ladakh . They travelled on foot for 3200kms covering the remotest part to know the difficulties and lack of basic things . Education and exposure of outside world to the villagers and kids of high altitude was one . So they decide to do that in extreme winters when there is vacation of 50 days as temperature drops to -25 to -30 degrees. They faced extreme difficulties in convincing the local authorities as outsiders but eventually they succeeded and it’s been 4 years since then . The rest of the time they run Chaupati. Please do visit when you are in Leh.

On day 3rd I started my journey to Nubra Valley which is around 130 kms from Leh via Khardungla which is the highest motor-able road in the world at an altitude of 17982 ft The road from Leh to Khardungla is narrow in between and sometimes you ran into army or other convoys from other side it would make you wait for hours . Along side the way runs the beautiful Shyok river which is the tributary of Indus River .The feeling at the top was amazing and a picture with the signage of Border Roads Organisation is mandatory. It’s Been there and Done That.

It’s beautiful and picturesque with dunes and the Diskit monastery. Hundar is 6 km from Diskit where One can enjoy the ride on Bicarmel or two humps camel. The sand dunes amidst picturesque mountains give a mesmerising view of a cold desert.

Bicarmel Camel Nubra Valley

I stayed in a tent in Hundar that evening after spending time in sand dunes. The tent was comfortable with a comfortable bed. The food was homely and hygienic.

Diskit Monastry
Stay in Tent in Hundar

On Day 3rd at around 0730 am we left for pangong Tso lake from Hundar which is around 140 kms around . The roads are treacherous in between due to damage by weather. But still the journey was pleasant by breathtaking views . On one stop for tea after 50 kms around I met a gentleman who was also having tea there . I came to know his name Aditya Bhattaacharjee who was travelling in his Alto from Kolkata on solo trip . And more amazing thing was that his enthusiasm even at the age of 70 years. He was travelling even after we reach our home . My regards for such aan inspiring personality. You can follow him by the same name on Facebook for his incredible experiences and adventures.

At around 1400 hrs we reach Pangong Tso lake with a mesmerising view . Pangong Tso lake is at an altitude of 4225 m and it’s 134 kms long . 2/3rd if it’s part lies in Tibet . I stayed in a lake view small lake-view hotel at Spangmik Village.

View from Room , Pangong Lake

The room was comfortable and cosy. At 1600 hrs I went near the lake for the amazing view and also the point where shooting of movie Three Idiots took place . Clear water amidst the mountains is worth visiting once in lifetime . I also did 50 push-ups to check my stamina at an altitude of around 15000 ft.

Pangong Lake
Having some chat with self in pristine surroundings.

After arriving back to my room I had a cup of tea sitting outside and a view worth dying for . It was windy and could not sit for long outside and I retired to my room.

What an experience of having tea with a view
And a book with a view .

After early dinner I call it a day .

Next day early in the morning at around 0730 hrs I started for Leh again with lots of memories embedded in my heart . The route this time we took via Changla Pass which is at a height of 17688 ft and lies between Shyok Valley and Leh.

Sunrise at Pangong Tso lake
At Changla Pass 17688 ft

This is the culmination point of our trajectory to Leh . After that we started down to Leh . The last stop was Thicksey Monastery which was 19 km before reaching Leh town.

With this comes the end of the tour of Ladakh. In the evening I went to the market to buy some shawls and small souvenirs.

Inside Thicksey Monastery

Fitness of Mind and Soul

Of late there is a flood of fitness centers in Dehradun. People are enthusiastic and it is good to see that people of Dehradun are getting health conscious. But the health of body as well as mind is also important. Being myself a fitness fanatic I do certain things to keep my mind sane and reading is one such activity. Writing something creative is another. I follow certain regimen which I would like to share as many people ask me about it.

It is not always possible to go to gym or fitness center for work out. So, I do walk and few floor exercises using the body weight. Mostly there is no time to do walk as there is myth that it is to be done in morning and evening. It can be done anytime provided you are well hydrated and energetic. 

For healthy mind it’s good to read newspaper not online necessarily as it leads to multiple clicks leading to wastage of time. Hence print media is still the best. I pick up any book of genre of my interest. Target is always to read few pages daily to keep continuity but even if I may not be able to do so, I try to read at least couple of pages. Again, there is no time to read, you can read anytime. For that matter, I read after I get up in the morning and it is not weird and it keeps me away from phone for some time.

People always complain that they do not feel energetic in the morning to go for workout. the first victory is this only to push yourself for the goal. If sleepy then sleep for another 15 min. Same is with reading the book, one feel sleepy while reading and its natural. But get up again and read till you get the habit of reading more pages in one go. It really works.

Age is just numbers for both fitness and reading as well. If Milind Soman can maintain his fitness at 55 anyone can. You just must push yourself and if there is a will there is a way. Same is with reading books. You can read at any age. Just pick the book of genre you like and then expand your horizon. You need not to read what everyone is reading or the book that won any international award.

The other obstacle is weather. if rains are obstacle in your fitness regimen, then it can be a boon for reading. You can interchange the time. And if it extends for days then use umbrella or Rain suit as you are not made of wax and hostile weather is just an excuse. Moreover, there is no dress code for both reading and exercise.

Now if you think that above regimen will make your life insipid and hell, you can party hard occasionally keeping the discipline of bare minimum. It is natural to cross the limitssometimes but you would get better if think wisely.

Lastly have the company of motivators instead of negative morons who can push you to better lifestyle. If you have any book club in your town do join to know other readers which will make you to read. Also do join gym or group of fitness enthusiasts to have a better lifestyle.

The above are my personal views and based on extensive experience and not necessarily an endorsement.

The Promise

The Promise

It was when I used to study in 12th standard in a modest hometown Dehradun. Dehradun is a beautiful city, located at the foothills of the pristine Himalayas. It is very well known for its education hub and beautiful hill station Mussoorie, also known as the queen of hills. The prominent schools are The Doon School, Welham Boys, and Girls, Woodstock, and St George’s in Mussoorie but I have not studied in any of these reputed and expensive schools. I studied in an English school for the sake of name but the functionalities are not of that repute. My home was nearest to the school among all my friends. We used to be the motley of 15-16 friends and used to compete with each other in studies, sports, and extracurricular activities.
During the 1990s, the Uttarakhand agitation was at its peak to carve out a separate state for the hill people from the erstwhile state of Uttar Pradesh. It was a daily affair and schools and government offices were supposed to be closed during such agitations. On one such fine day in 1993 when I was in class, the protesters came and forced the school authorities to declare me as off. As my home was nearest to the school and have a small field too where we could play cricket. So I was a little more ecstatic and asked my fellow friends to go there directly to play.
As we were in the frenzy of this excitement I was oblivious of my surroundings, when one of my friends came and told me that a girl was crying who was also a classmate. I asked him what it had to do with me. Then what he told me there was not even an iota of that in my mind. He told me that I asked everyone to come to my home with me and she was also standing there and I ignored her. It is pertinent to tell here that during those days I was quite an introverted person as far as talking to girls was concerned. Moreover, it was taboo too due to my upbringing in a conservative family where even reading news magazines like ‘India Today’ was considered bad books leave alone others. Maybe because of that, I had not asked her to visit my home.
When my friend told me to talk to her I was a bit irked as well as scared. Still, I approached her and asked why she was crying. She didn’t say anything for a while but kept on crying. On pestering, she said that I hate her and consider her untouchable for her medical complications. And I avoid talking to her even when I sit next to her in class. She was crying incessantly which made me more nervous as everyone was watching. This was the first time I got into such a precarious situation.
Keeping my nerves intact I tried to explain to her my faux paux, limitations, and nervousness while talking to girls, leaving alone inviting her home, and also convinced her that I have no problem with her or her ailment. It took me quite some time to console her and then from nowhere I uttered that ‘whenever I will have a house of my own, I promise you will be the first person whom I would invite wherever you would be ‘. After saying this I felt so relieved for reasons I don’t know.
Time flies and we completed our school. Then took admitted to college which was more or less a picnic place, with no compulsion of attending classes. But I used to go regularly for excursions. Both of us went in different streams but used to meet on and off in college. Once I got to go to her home on her birthday along with other friends, though I was quite shy and reluctant. When I met her parents I was surprised that they knew about me inside out and held me in high regard. She had told them that I am an intelligent boy, who shies a lot and how I got nervous on that day. The grandeur of her home was also making me nervous. I saw a lot of paintings on walls signed by her which tells them she is an excellent artist too. Friendship continues.
In college, we were in different streams so all the schoolmates now scattered and made new friends and groups according to their convenience. So we all ran into each other at the occasion. We graduated and then started struggling for jobs. Uttarakhand is known for its hill people and its courage in the armed forces and I was also not untouched by this. We used to qualify for SSB many times but always got out in the end.
But eventually, I qualified exam for Central Armed Paramilitary Force and was selected for CENTRAL RESERVE POLICE FORCE (CRPF). I joined more out of need than enthusiasm due to circumstances at home. It was not in my wildest dreams as a career as never heard of anything like CRPF. I went for training in Chennai for 48-52 weeks and passed out in May 1999. After a brief posting in New Delhi, I was sent to Assam along with my battalion. Those were the days when there were no means of communication and even landline telephones used to be a luxury. Assam was hit by insurgency and the state was boiling so much at that time that even traveling within the state was quite dangerous. It was deadly for security forces. I sometimes managed to call my parents at my neighbor’s number or one of my friends if the lines were free and working as Assam receives heavy rainfall and communication was disrupted for many days at a stretch. Even if the lines were working we used to call the nearest STD booth from our only phone in the control room in the wee hours, which in turn used to dial at our home from other phones and get us the line by connecting both receivers and mouthpiece of two phones oppositely.
During these calls, I came to know from one of my friends that she got married to an army officer and is going to be posted in Assam only. At that time I was posted on the outskirts of Guwahati which is 30 km from the railway station. I I decided to try to meet both of them. I got the telephone number of the transit camp of the army which is near Guwahati railway station. I rang and told them the details of her husband. They transferred the call and he picked up the call and I simply said I want to talk to her, he gave it to her and when I told her that I am in Guwahati, it turned out into a meeting plan which was going to be adventurous and memorable for life.
It was difficult for me to go to her place as the distance was 30 km and most of the time there were bandh calls by militant groups and there were no plying of public transport. I managed to get a bike from one of my colleagues and went there all alone making some outrageous excuse. When I reach there and met the officer he turned out to be one of the guys with whom I took coaching when we got through the written examination, qualifying which he was in front of me donning the olive green and I couldn’t get through. It was love cum arranged marriage as the gentleman told me. We planned to go for an outing on my bike, on a prohibited triple ride in Guwahati market. It was such fun to meet and do things that you never dreamt of in your wildest dreams and that too in far-flung areas.
We talked at length and relive all the school and college memories including that day when we had that promise and our friendship started. That day the urge to own a house rose once again in me. She bought a few things from the market for her to be home during a posting in Tezpur, a town 100 km from Guwahati. After a few hours, I bid goodbyes and returned as it was going to be dark and it’s dangerous to travel in dark the and I was on a clandestine stint without informing my superiors.
I reached safely at around 5 pm before roll call. I started saving money and seeing land for my dream house. But still, it was a farfetched dream. Now due to insurgency we hardly had any communication for long.
In 2001 I got posted in Maharashtra and the same year managed to grab a piece of land in Dehradun which turned out to be disputed, and it became a thorn in the flesh for me. Somehow managed to get rid of it. In 2003 I again purchased a small plot with the monetary help of my friends who are the constants of my life to date and family. The prices of property were and are skyrocketing day by day due to the constitution of the new state of Uttarakhand in 2001. Due to a shortage of funds, I kept my plan of constructing the house at bay for quite some time. But as the luck would have it, in 2006 I started construction with the support of one of my childhood friends who is an architect. I approached him and he came up with a blueprint and budget which I could not afford but the determination to own the house was burning. After much discussion and assessing my funds and loan from the bank I went ahead with the plan but not without the help of my bosom friends once again. I took a loan from the bank and laid down the foundation of the home to start the construction with the blessings of my parents and the Almighty.
Due to my posting in far-flung areas and shortage of funds, the work was quite slow and in my absence looked after by my friends and brother. The architect’s friend had taken the contract of construction though he was not into this. By the end of the year 2006, I had my house of dreams. This was the best moment of my life and proud of my parents who had seen the toughest times and had spent living in a small room in a building inhabited by many families and full of chaos and quarrels. I thanked my friends and families who had helped me in achieving the most sought-after dream.
I had not forgotten my promise yet in all those frenzies of moments. I searched for the number of my friend and came to know about her whereabouts. By that time mobile phones came into use. I rang her and told her that she is the first one whom I am inviting to my own house, keeping my promise made some 13 years back. She was quite happy and there was a sense of pride in me for keeping my promise
She came but not immediately due to the posting of her husband in far-flung areas. At last, she visited and we reminisced that day and that promise and a bond of friendship once again strengthened.
We have been friends still while writing this in 2019 and stood with each other in every thick and thin of life. She has two beautiful daughters with whom she had shared this anecdote and I visit the places of her posting if ever nearby or passing by. Her husband is now a senior army officer and one of my two role models. I conclude this as below
Keep the flame of friendship high and never let it die,
It gives you the happiness that money can’t buy.
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Case Studies

SUICIDE AND FRATRICIDE IN FORCES

In 2000 when I was sitting in Headquarter of my first battalion, I came to know that one of the officers who were commanding a sub-unit was shot multiple times. The subunit was located some 45 km from the HQ. Later it was revealed that this was the matter of fratricide by a jawan who was punished for being drunk during duty hours and the jawan took the revenge by using the SLR of another jawan on duty and fired 11 rounds point-blank on the officer when he was sitting in his room at dinner. Further, it was also revealed that the jawan was awarded punishment in front of his wife with a small kid living across the camp.
The term “Fratricide” was very new for me which means a person who kills his or her brother. And I also realized that these issues should be addressed proactively. At that time there were not many sources of communication and entertainment as today. The basic source was letters to get the information from home and STD/PCOs/landline phone rarely due to expensiveness and non-availability at one end. The letters used to arrive in many days and till then if there was any domestic issue stated in them would be taken care of till it reached him. Troops were more engaged in fatigue in spare time and outdoor games were played by everyone as there was no other way to pass the time. Hence people in forces used to have very less time to ponder on unnecessary issues. Troops used to eat and go to bed early to start the day early. The pressure on mind was less hence very fewer cases of fratricide and suicide was there. But one reason I found out was humiliation and disgruntlement.
Next in 2007, I was posted in the Left Wing Extremism area of Chhattisgarh i.e. Dantewada. It was surrounded by hills all around and very sensitive. The troops were accommodated in the huts all around with an undulated open space in between. When I reached there was a lull all around and no one seemed enthusiastic. At that time mobile phones were there but only one network operator was there and due to hostile terrain and subversive activities by Naxals it mostly used to remain out of order. But the DTH were the new revolution in those days as a source of entertainment. The liquor was issued to the jawans going on leave and there was consumption also by manipulation. I was given the charge of officer commanding, HQ. I was regular in touch with the commandant and other officers at HQ. I suggested that the ground in the middle can be made playground and everyone is made compulsory to play in the evening and physical training in the morning. It would make them busy and fit too. And they can watch TV in the evening during dinner time or after if we install DTHs in Recreation Rooms. Also as there was electricity so we can make café and install Deep freezer with the supply of soft drinks and various eatables like south Indian food and sweets which can be made in-house? This worked and the camp started looking lively, more energetic and ready for serving in such dangerous theatre. The duties were tough and there was no time to think of any other thing. Hence there was no such incident of fratricide or suicide even though everyone was armed with a weapon all the time.
Next time I got posted to Assam in 2009. By this time the smartphones have already replaced the outdoor activities. The force personnel also not remain untouched and started using phones even on duties. Moreover shooting videos during duty and non-duty time and posting them on social media without knowing the consequences added to the woes of the authorities. Later use of mobile phones or phones was banned and still prevails but implementation is difficult for the last man. Many cases were reported where the personnel shot self while talking at home and got hyper by any sort of altercation. Due to an increase in the use of smartphones stress, insomnia and depression-like ailments started being noticed in personnel that led to the hamper in work efficiency as well as state of mind. That personnel who were living with families and spend most of their time on the phone started having quarrel which led to above-stated ailments. In one such incident, one constable who belongs to Assam only and was living with family and a small kid committed suicide by hanging himself in the bathroom. Later the reason found to be social media addiction, domestic violence, boozing and chatting with other females that. This adds to the various other causes of committing suicides.
Next when again got posted in LWE area of Jharkhand one of the most notorious. I was commanding a company .it was a new camp and we were living in tents till new accommodation is constructed. Moreover, there was no mobile network and electricity is only generated by generators. The supply to the camp was scarce due to Naxal infested area. There are villagers mostly tribal live in and around the camp where they brew country made liquor at home. Though there also in very little space I introduced volleyball, cricket and badminton but as it was newly constituted battalion made from gathering personnel from other many battalions, Hence it was very difficult to know the psyche of every individual. As local booze was easily available many jawans got indulged in that which was very dangerous as Naxals look for such kind of opportunities when we let our guards down. I briefed them and also took some strict actions but few were serial offenders and on checking their confidential cards it was found that they were punished multiple times and even promoted. In one such incident, one constable in the state of intoxication threatened me for consequences. I immediately initiated a preliminary enquiry and deposited his weapon. I checked his confidential card and found that he was a serial offender right from the beginning and was a burden for the force as he always got away with minor punishments. Now threatening is a serious issue and I took the cognizance of it and after inquiry, he was transferred to some other battalion where after a few days he got dismissed in another case. The impact of this was that one more guy who was his accomplish and used to threaten and intimidate everyone got disciplined. Hence indiscipline cases need to be checked on time to avoid any catastrophe.
In another case of indiscipline, a constable was already under departmental inquiry for being deserter for 11 months, when I joined that unit. I noticed that he was indulged in unnecessary activities like recording various other personnel’s activities on phone and threatening and intimidating everyone including his witnesses. With the progress of the enquiry, he started becoming more agitated and more vocal. I was noticing this behaviour and asked him to do the duty without a weapon as it could have been fatal. He objected and felt humiliated for doing the duty without a weapon but he was personally counselled by me and was told about his behaviour and not to feel offended. Later I also recommended to post witnesses separately from the delinquent (him) to avoid any clashes or intimidation which was done immediately and a possible case of fratricide or suicide was averted, I feel so. Hence watching the behaviour by a senior officer and a proactive approach can prevent any damages.
During the same time in another place, I Assam one rank holder having service of more than 25 years shot dead his colleague by service weapon on some altercation during evening hours. Later on, it came to notice that the guy used to tease him over some personal issues and one day he lost his control over his anger and shot him. The personal differences are also sometimes taken very ugly shape. Hence briefing and counselling by the senior officer should be done at regular intervals.
Lastly with my experience of two decades I one of the largest paramilitary force in the world I concluded that briefing, counselling, being proactive and dealing firmly with indiscipline cases can avert many such incidents. This is my personal opinion and based on facts. Any resemblance to anyone has nothing to do with this article.

The Mystical Hinterland -NE India

THE MYSTICAL NORTH –EAST

I joined CRPF in May 1998 and after completion of training in 1999, I first got posted to Assam, in NORTH EAST INDIA. At that time North East particularly Assam was boiling with insurgency and no one wanted to be posted there if thinks logically. But in the enthusiasm of a new job and new place I was least bothered.
North East India considered being the strategic part of as it is surrounded by countries like China, Myanmar, Bhutan, Bangladesh and Nepal. It is constituted by seven states which are sometimes called seven sisters i.e. Assam, Arunachal Pradesh, Manipur, Meghalaya, Mizoram, Nagaland and Tripura. River Brahmaputra divides North East India from the rest and is joined by a state of art Bridge called Saraighat.
North East India always remains neglected part of the country with very least development which led to the developing of insurgency and militancy which is dated back as old as 1946. In 1946 Phizo a Naga started the insurgency in Nagaland by waging an armed rebellion against the government, claiming Nagaland a separate country, the reason being the society, culture, demography and terrain are different from the mainland India. Also, they claim themselves to be the descendants of South Asian tribe. The thick jungles and hilly terrain also helped in nurturing of insurgency and made it tedious fort the security agencies to tackle the menace. The neighbouring countries that are always ready to grab the opportunity to unsettle our nation, provided and helped with much-needed weapons and funds. The reluctance of central government to look into the matter over the period added fuel to the fire in the insurgency.
When I got posted in Assam for the first time my battalion headquarters was on the outskirts of Guwahati in an industrial complex, some 30 km from the railway station. The insurgency was t its peak though few operations were conducted against the insurgent’s groups like ULFA(United Liberation Front of Assam).
ULFA was created by a few youths who were from a very well to do families and educated and were employed, at Rang Ghar (amphitheatre) in the district of Sibsagar in upper Assam in April 1979. The main ideology was to make Assam a sovereign nation with separate Constitution and habited by originals Ahoms of the region.
The main mode of transport to North East was mainly trains and few flights in those times As the flights used to be expensive hence most of the people including security forces used to travel mostly by train. The notoriety of the region because of insurgency was far and wide. Hence mostly who had worked only used to travel mainly The ULFA/insurgents never wanted the non- Assamese in the state including the Security forces and other working. Hence they target the trains by planting IEDs and blasts the railway tracks. They also used to ambush the SFs, killing and kidnapping for ransom of government and PSUs
The North East is also known for incessant and heavy rainfalls. In those days the only mean of communication was a landline and the STD/PCO or letters by post were very scarce. Due to trains most of the times that used to be out of order or if we were lucky there was only one landline in the control room for official and operational purpose. In the day time, it was busy most of the time for official purpose and when at night there was not any possibility of incoming official calls we used to call an STD/PCO number some 8kms away and asked him to call our home to get us to connect. he used to dial out a home number from another set and get us connected by joining both mouthpiece and receiver which made the voice very bleak. Everyone used to get a minute or two to know the well being of our folks so that more people can talk till morning. Moreover, it was unauthorized to use the official phone. There were no DTH at that time so we mostly were dependent on newspapers. Even the local newspaper used to reach us after 2-3 days of publication due to unwarranted bandhs and militancy, forget about national dailies which were supplied by airmail as all were mostly New Delhi published. So the best mode of communication was letters. I used to write letters to parents and friends and the wait for one always kept us alive in the hinterland.
Once a while we used to get the chance of going to the market usually monthly commodities procurement for the troops or any official duties, which excited us to get rid of the monotonous routine of campus. It is again a tough job as first a ROAD OPENING PARTY have to be sent beforehand to sanitize the area from any IEDs or Ambush by the militants. When all found okay then the vehicles used to go and the ROP would remain there till then.
Once I went with one of my senior on official duty in the morning. Meanwhile, at lunch time, we decided to eat in the local outlet. We ordered rice and Sabji (vegetable) as told by him consider it to be vegan as I am pure veg. After eating a few spoons suddenly there was a clatter in my mouth. I asked my colleague if it has meat. He rubbished it and we had it till he also realized that it’s Aloo Meat Sabji. I immediately left with nausea feeling. We summoned the waiter and ask him why he lied to us. He said its called sabji only as meat is a staple diet in Assam. My first lesson that food habits to be taken seriously when in the North East.
There were blasts and ambushes and massacre of non-Assamese people by ULFA and their accomplices all around us as the news came every everyday dummy train was run before the real one to avoid any blasts or ambush by the militants. The trains were also stopped as and where it would be at 1700 hrs till 0500 hrs before entering in Assam which is run after thorough sanitizing the area from any untoward incident. The Govt officials especially Non-Assamese who work there were kidnapped for ransom to get their cadres free from jails. That’s why most of them didn’t want to be posted there which is instrumental in the stagnation of development of the region. During that time a very unfortunate incident of fratricide happened in my regiment. A constable shot an officer commanding over some trivial issue by service rifle. During my stint in Guwahati, we had a platoon (25) post in Reserve Bank of India which was the treasury vault for all the seven states. The denomination was sent by chopper to the remotest area of the region and sometime due to inhospitable weather used to return midway. That time I saw the real treasury as shown in movies.
After my tenure of two and a half years in 2001, I got transferred to Maharastra in a training centre. Again in 2009, the charm of North East prompted me to have choice posting in upper Assam and I got Dibrugarh, the tea city of India, that too with a promotion.
There is a place called Chabua (cha means tea and bua means planted) in Dibrugarh where the tea was first grown hence the name. I got the command of my troops based in Chabua in a makeshift government accommodation all surrounded by tea gardens and the headquarters was located at 40 km away in police line Dibrugarh. There was an Indian Air Force station nearby where fighter jets like SUKHOI-30 were also placed, which is strategically located keeping our hostile countries in view. By 2009 Assam was far more peaceful than before barred few incidents of insurgencies.
My camp at Chabua near a big tea garden like Tata Tea, Goodricke, Assam Tea Company, etc to name a few. There was greenery all around and pristine surrounding never ceases to give happiness to the heart.
The first term I heard which was of some significance to my profession was “SULFA” i.e. surrendered ULFA. The central government has made a surrender policy for militants according to which, the militants can surrender unconditionally and also can keep weapons with themselves. They will be tried in the court with minimum punishment and can be placed in open jail during that period. Lured by such lenient policy lot of ULFA militants surrendered in the late 90s and they came into the mainstream but now they started acting like an organization which has hierarchy as before in ULFA. In short, now they have legally organized extortionists with the immunity of government.
In Dibrugarh, I came across one such powerful SULFA (name withheld) that enjoys the Assam Police Commandoes protection, rides in cavalcade and control all the outsourced government contracts. He is treated like VIP in all state functions and sits In the VIP area. Most of the cases of disputes in the ara are sorted out in his den. He and one of his accomplices have floated his own real estate company surprisingly managed by one retired senior paramilitary officer and they are now CEO and MD of such company. If you ask anyone in town about his worth you will be told that around 2000cr and more but not less than that. One of the two also have been model in his heydays and while in ULFA went to Sri Lanka clandestinely to get the support of LTTE in their cause. Now the government contract is negotiated with them and bid by them only or their man. Even the contract of constructing the largest bridge of India on river Brahmaputra in Dibrugarh is done by them and their associates.
During their insurgency days, they used to take shelter in tea gardens and duly supported by the garden employees which they repaid after employing them in their so-called companies at fat salaries. Now with money and prestige lifestyle also changed like participation in car rallies, shooting in countries like Vietnam, foreign trips and much more. The ladies swoon overt and die to befriend them. The enormity of their influence can be imagined that they have placed one of their accomplices in each of the districts as the “commander” of that district. All the big businesses like liquor shops, petrol pumps etc. are directly or indirectly controlled by them.
Due to my “Marwari” (businessman) surname, I befriended many big businessmen there, especially in tea growing fraternity. This also makes me socially active among the masses. I attend the local functions and I met so many so-called SULFAs there. Now they belong to the elite class of Assam. I met the biggest in one function of one of my friend who got married in Assam. Most of the tea gardens have their inbuilt facilities like golf courses, playgrounds, water bodies for fishing etc. Interestingly the home of the self-styled Commander-in-Chief of ULFA, Paresh Baruah who is still at large and the most wanted militant commander of the country, was located in my area of responsibility. The village was considered to be the nursery of ULFA militants. Whether you take it my fortune or otherwise, I got to see that house duly guarded by Assam Police inhabited by his ailing mother. During her fag end the Government also offered a safe passage to Paresh Baruah to meet her, but interestingly he declined to cite that the cause of Assam for which he is fighting is greater than his mother. If you go by the book “RENDEZVOUS WITH REBELS-JOURNEY TO MEET INDIA’S MOST WANTED MEN’ BY RAJIV BHATTACHARYA, which is a true account of his meeting with Paresh Barua and other North East militants leaders in the safe sanctuary at an unknown location in Myanmar- India border, he is healthy and fine in his 70s. The cause of Assam is still alive though there is a sharp decline in the activities of ULFA cadres. Again after a stint of three years almost I got transferred to the Naxal hinterland of Jharkhand.
After almost two years at Jharkhand, I again choose Assam and again lucky to got pristine upper Assam. This time I was placed at a campus Khat-khati, located on the Nagaland- Assam border near a so-called cosmopolitan town Dimapur in Nagaland. The place is quite amusing as Nagaland is a dry state and there you find the best bars. There you find HONG_KONG market too known for chic fashion apparels mainly imported from neighbouring Myanmar.
People of North East particularly Nagaland, Mizoram and Manipur are well educated and consider elves outsider due to the historical background they have for the last two centuries. The Naga Hills came under the British occupation from 1832 to 1947. The last battle of Naga resistance against the British was fought in 1879 at the village of Khonoma. In March 1880, a treaty was enacted between the British government and the Naga villagers. The British annexation of the Naga Hills did not extend to the eastern areas and the people living in those areas continued to be referred to ‘FREE NAGAS’ throughout the British period. No attempt was made to interfere with their lifestyles.
During World War 1, 2000 Nagas were sent to France as members of the British Army. They saw the enormous cost of war and, additionally the might of the empire. These Nagas returned and formed the Naga Club in 1918. Some historians maintain that this marked of political consciousness among the Nagas.
In 1929, members of the Naga Club drafted a memorandum that cane to be known as the Simon Commission and submitted it to the British government. It laid down the aspirations of the Nagas to determine their future. In their submission to the Simon Commission, the petitioners were very clear that they did not want the Naga territory to be included In the Reformed Scheme of India which had been done without consulting the Nagas. Two things were underlined: one, that the Naga Hills should be removed from the Reformed scheme and continued to be under British administration, but if this did not happen, the other petition was that the Nagas should be entitled to self-determination as in the past. They highlighted the fact that wide linguistic, cultural and historical differences existed between them and the Hindu and the Muslim population of India.
Six years later, the Government of India act 1935 was passed. It had taken heed of the Simon Commission and stated that the Naga Hills district was to be treated as ‘Excluded Areas” and no Act of the Assam Legislature were to apply to the Naga areas. Nagas were to be the special responsibility of the governor of the province in his capacity as crown representative. The act passed in 1935, came into effect only in 1937. After the First World War and during World War 2 the Britishers were fighting against the Japanese army in Burma and they knew that next would be Nagaland via Manipur. They sort out the assistance of Nagas to fight alongside them against Japanese promising them to be independent after they leave. After the war, Charles Pawsey, deputy commissioner of the Naga Hills, initiated an organization called the Naga Hills District Tribal Council (NHTDC). IN 1946 NHTDC changed its name to Naga National Council (NNC).
Two letters were sent to the British Indian Government in early 1947, political in nature, stating the distinct history of the Naga people and reminding the government of their loyalty to the crown during the war. Mention was made of the 1935 Constitution of India which put the Nagas in an “Exclude Area’ under the crown’s representative.
The NNC declined the offer stating that they stood for unification and freedom of all Naga Tribes. The NNC letter did communicate that they wished to continue their connection with India on all broad issues, but they desired to live as a distinctive community enjoying home rule in their own country.
Frustrated by their negotiations with various leaders of the incoming Government of India, the Nagas declared their independence on 14th august 1947, a day before India marked its independence from British rule. A.Z. Phizo became the head of NNC in 1949and pushed forward an aggressive campaign for independence. By this time, the Assam Police battalion and the Indian army had begun killing Naga villagers and burning villages.
The call for ‘Non –Cooperation’ with India was given by NNC under the leadership of Phizo. The 16th May 1951 plebiscite claimed that 99 per cent of Nagas supported independence. Civil disobedience followed. On 11th May 1952, the meeting of a delegation with PM Jawaharlal Nehru to inform him of Naga plebiscite ended in a ‘stormy interview’. Nehru ignored the Naga invitation to visit the Naga Hills for further talks. In 1952 first general elections held. The nagas boycotted it and empty ballot boxes were returned to Delhi. The NNC banned by the Indian Government and the Indian army was sent to tackle the situation resulting in deaths of many Nagas. The NNC cadres went underground and thus began the insurgency in Nagaland.
On 18th Sept 1956, People’s Sovereign Republic of Free Nagaland was established by the Free Nagas. this was followed by the formation of Federal Government of Nagaland (FGN). The Government of India referred to them as Underground Nagas. Members of NNC like, T.Muivah, Isak Chishi Swu and S.S.Khaphlang broke away from NNC and formed Nationalist Socialist Council of Nagaland (NSCN) on 31st January 1980. The stated objective of NSCN was to establish a sovereign state unifying all the Naga-inhabited areas of North East India and northern Burma. This resulted in the violent clashes between NSCN cadres and Indian Security forces. In 1988 NSCN further broke into another faction by S.S. Khaplang forming NSCN(K) from NSCN(IM) headed by Isak Chishi Swu as chairman and T.Muivah as General Secretary.
Isak Chishi Swu passed in 2016 and S.S.Khaplang died in 2017. On a political front, NSCN (IM) has divided its area of influence into eleven regions based on sub-tribe considerations and administrative convenience. In many areas, they run a parallel government. There are four ‘ministries’ including education, information, finance and foreign affairs and “ taxes’ and ‘revenues’ are collected from all the businessmen and workers in addition to what has been given to State and Central Government. The shops are supposed to be closed by 1700 hours as an unwritten rule by UGs and no one make unnecessary movement after that.
Government of People’s Republic of Nagaland (GPRN) was established by NSCN .the GPRN successfully contacted the United Nations Human rights Council in Geneva. Some reports allege that both Pakistan and China had financed arms and ammunition to the NSCN. Since the breakaway from the Khaplang faction, many other factions have been formed and currently, as many as eight are present. On 3rd Aug 2015 NSCN(I-M) leaders Isak and Muivah signed a framework agreement with the Indian Government in the presence of PM Narender Modi and NSA Ajit Doval. Currently, they are in a ceasefire and are accommodated in designated camps at Dimapur, Nagaland.
When everything is seen as peaceful in Nagaland, two major incidents which I witnessed marred the peace in recent times:
On 5th March 2015 dawned like any other day in Dimapur. But something happened that changed it drastically. A non-Naga man had been jailed the previous day on the charge of raping a Naga girl. Almost without warning, a mob quickly gathered in the evening, headed to Dimapur jail, broke open the gates and dragged the accused to the City Tower in the heart of the city and hanged him. I have never seen so many people together like that in Dimapur. One version of the story was that the Muslim man was seeing this Naga girl for quite some time and the man was already married to a Naga girl. They were both neighbours too. Things fall apart among them due to some money matters and the man was alleged for rape. The girl warned for dire consequences before filing FIR. Next day the news broke out in al the newspapers and media. The man was arrested and sent to jail. In the evening many students and political organizations gave notice to Deputy Commissioner for peaceful protest from Jail to City tower which turned out to be a violent mob, dragging the prisoner after breaking the jail and killed and hanged him. The jail guards were overpowered, the administration and police service proved defunct to avoid the blunder. No arrests were made and next day high-level meeting of district authorities and other senior police officers held. A training program for controlling law and order problem under CRPF where I was posted, chalked out. Sentiments of illegal Bangladeshi immigrants also took over the state. But the person lynched belongs to the family serving in the Indian Army for two generations, presently the brother. The incident died out there and then after 3-4 days and normal routine resumed.
In another incident, in October 2016 PM Narender Modi announced the demonetization of high-value denomination of Rs. 1000 and Rs500 and asked to be deposited in banks by 31st December 2016. It took the country in chaos and everyone rushed to the banks all of the sudden as lots of cash flow was in the market which is unaccountable also. Being Nagaland a tax haven and well connected with Kolkata and New Delhi by air and train, cash started flowing in in banks of Nagas who after charging their commission gave back the remaining. In one such unique case on 22nd November during my stay there, CISF personnel at Dimapur airport seized packets of currencies worth crores brought by chartered plane from Hisar, Haryana. The cash was claimed by Dimapur based businessman Anato Zhimoni, son-in-law of a former Member of Parliament and former Nagaland Chief Minister Neiphio Rio. The news spread like wildfire throughout the country. In his statement to authorities, he said that he had invested money in the northern region but due to demonetization he had no other way but to bring it back by chartered plane. It was later revealed that an amount to the tune of 24 cr was brought back in four chartered sorties and deposited in a private bank. The matter died down and nothing was asked further as no tax is in Nagaland.
On 20/8/14, that was the day when my heart was in my mouth. I was posted in Khatkhati, a small ghetto in Assam’s Karbi Anglong district. On that fateful day, I went to meet one of my school friend Rajeev, who had come to a place Numaligarh for some official work. Numaligarh is some odd 100 km from Khatkhati. He knew that I was nearby, he gave a call and we planned to meet. I planned to visit his office making it official by a visit to my CRPF camp nearby. I got the prior approval from my head of office, and also apprised him about the motive of my visit. He did not object and gave the green signal. At 0730 hrs I along with my four armed security personnel and a driver started for my destination by official vehicle Tata sumo. At that hour the roads were empty and had no traffic and everything seemed perfect. I had calculated the time and had planned accordingly. By 0930hrs we reached our camp and after doing a few formalities of official work I left at 1015 hrs again to meet Rajeev whose office was on the way back and approx 8 km from my camp. I also planned lunch at another tea gardener friend after meeting Rajeev. The office of my friend was on NH 39. I met him warmly and had a cup of tea with him and a few of his fellows. After spending 1 hr at his office I again left for my destination and lunch.
After going a few kilometres on NH 39 on my way back, I saw a gathering of people on both sides of the road. This place is called ‘tel garam ‘in local dialect as trijunction of Numaligarh Refinery Limited. I was sitting in the front seat beside the driver and my protection in middle and rear seats. As our vehicle approached near the crowd they started caving in and suddenly started pelting stones on our vehicle from both sides. We were clueless whatsoever about the situation. One stone as big as shot put struck my window and shattered it. As the luck would have it I always keep my window glass up when travel, for reasons inexplicable. And that day this eccentricity saved me. Now the mob started beating the vehicle with sticks and shattered all windows. I instructed the driver not to stop and keep driving slowly not to run over on anyone. They heckled the protection and tried to pull them out but didn’t succeed. Though we were armed with automatic weapons we could least do anything against the mob, which if done, had added fuel to the fire. Somehow we managed to get through it but still shocked at what we went through. Somewhere I thought that we had escaped the worst and now once we will reach our campus everything damaged could be taken care of. But my relief was short-lived.
After going another few kilometres I saw another set of the mob. We stopped at once some 500 m before that. Now we came to know that we were fishing in troubled waters as we could not go back either as we just escaped from the dreaded mob. At the same time drizzling started. I made a few calls for help from my nearby units but they showed their inability for any assistance. Meanwhile, news about this incident had spread like wildfire all over and calls started pouring in from senior offices and officials. Due to drizzling, there were no vehicles on the road which was in favour of us. Now we started oscillating between both mobs. Then I took a major decision. There was an Assamese type house on roadside and little in the depth and an open courtyard in front. We drove our vehicle in the courtyard and knocked on the door. A man of around 20 years opened the door. One of my Assamese protection told him our situation and ask him for permission to stay for a few hours till normalisation of the situation. As we were in uniform he didn’t object and let us entered in an empty room. There were four members in the house, man’s wife, his brother and his toddler son.
A TV was broadcasting live news of ongoing mayhem in the next room. I got the jolt of my life seeing the broadcast. The trucks were set on fire not far away from our shelter and videos of a mob attacking the police personnel on duty leaving them in blood. We were a little relieved that now we were safe and could go back once things become normal. After around 1 hour the man of the house came to us and told that the villagers were asking ‘whose vehicle is this ‘, he also requested us to vacate his house or else he would be in trouble for sheltering us.
The genesis of the crisis is between the tribal mostly work as tea garden labourers and Nagas of Nagaland, This disputed territory between both states covers approx 1200 sq km and is known as disputed area belt ( dab) since 1970. Two battalions (2000 personnel) of Central Reserve Police Force (CRPF) are deployed as a neutral force to maintain status quo and law and order between the two states. It is directly under the Supreme Court jurisdiction. The dab is a fertile area that mostly falls towards Assam whereas the Nagaland side is hilly and undulated. That’s why dab is a bone of contention between both states.
Nagas are warrior tribe and by use of might and weapons, they dominated the dab area. The Nagas are also known for their free and easy life. As the region is fertile, they started keeping labourers for cultivation. Mostly these labourers are tribal of Odisha, West Bengal and Jharkhand. Initially, the agreement for payment was part of the yield and they started living there as well. This has been going on years without any trouble. But as time passed the population of tribal increased in manifolds whereas Nagas being educated remains constant in numbers. The tribal started claiming the stake inland too. And this becomes the matter of dispute every year during harvesting season.
On one such occasion in Aug 2014, 13 tribal were killed at point-blank by Nagas and their bodies were nowhere to be found. Due to this incident, there were clashes between tribal and CRPF troops accusing the latter of taking the side of Nagas and doing nothing in the matter. Stones were pelted on CRPF camps in that area. To take stock of the situation Chief Minister of Assam arrived next day but the tribal was too furious and they didn’t let him stay even for a minute and sent the CM back high and dry. Infuriated by this treatment he ordered lathi charge on the poor tribals, carried out by the Assam Police of Golaghat district. Next day all Assam Tribal Students Union wing of Golaghat district called for revenge with police. Little was known that they would chase them for their life. Moreover, a general population cannot distinguish between various forces whether state police or it is CRPF or army. They only know that whoever is donning uniform are the men to be taken for a ride and it happened that day too.
As time was passing we started getting comfortable. The family was Assamese and had nothing to do with these clashes; hence they didn’t want to get into melee. We requested them that we would take care if anything happened. For that, I send my driver outside in a towel and vest to hide ‘POLICE’ signage on a vehicle with mud and also cover the vehicle with bedsheets taken from the house. After some time passed and we had requested for tea and biscuits giving him money for that. But again after a while, the guy sends his wife along with toddler to request us to vacate the house as again the villagers were poking him that everyone knows that they don’t have any vehicle and if the miscreants saw they would trouble them for sheltering us, their enemies. Once again my Assamese protection man tried to convince the lady of the house and we also gave the little one Rs. 100 to please her.
After a few minutes, we felt silence in the house. I send my Assamese guy to inquire. He went and came back and told that the whole family fled to the village from back side fearing trouble as we were not leaving their place. Even then we were comfortable in such a situation until an old lady, an agony aunt type came and started yelling in Assamese from outside. I send my Assamese guy to inquire the matter and asked him to make her quiet by any means. After some time he came back and told that she is accusing us of getting the owner of the house in trouble and to get out of here immediately. At the same time, the rain stopped and traffic started plying again mainly media persons and miscreants as the curfew was imposed after the trouble. My guy was tackling the old lady but to no avail. Meanwhile, a few bikers saw the arguments with an old lady while they were passing. My guy immediately sensed the trouble and apprised me. They were only 5-6 miscreants at that time but slowly they called their other colleagues and they gathered in hundreds of numbers and immediately turned into a huge mob of around 1000 people. As I saw through the peephole from the window they approaching towards the house surrounding from all sides. Decided quickly and we all five escaped from the backyard, where there was paddy field filled with water up to knee level. After covering a portion of the field on the left side we came in an open area which was a parking area for earthmovers of the state department. As we came in open the mob started pelting stones and shouting ‘maro, maro’ (kill them). We took the shelter in drivers’ hut made of thatched roof and bamboo. Now, this was real trouble I was sure. I made a call to my boss and told him about the situation and admitted that we might not be able to come back alive and the vehicle might also be set ablaze by the mob surrounding us. My boss got infuriated and told me that he wants everything back safe and in order and asked me to do whatever. He disconnected the phone. Though after this call I was a little relieved.
My mind was racing against the time for taking immediate decisions amidst this furore and panicky situation. The mob was chanting abuses and hurling stones from the boundary towards the hut. My guys were also worried now. At the same time, two guys from the local news channel came to hut and asked me if we wanted to ask for help from CRPF through their channel. I refused at once as I didn’t want to be seen miserable to my 2.5 lakh strong force. Also, I could hear the sound of the beating of the body of my vehicle which we left in the courtyard. Now I took a decision and came out of the hut alone and there was a roar once again against us. I raise my hand intending to talk to them and listen to me to the top of my voice. There were few stones hurled towards me. Then the gate of that parking opened and five or six youngsters from the crowd came to the hut. They came to me and when I asked them to listen to me; they accused us of the killing of their brethren in dab area. They seemed to be the leaders of the group. I tried my best to convince them that we had nothing to do with those killings or with them whatsoever as we had gone for some work in another district and as we were returning we struck here in this chaos They were not ready to buy my version and continuously tried us to come out of the gate. I knew what they had in their mind once I got out of the gate. Reluctantly we all went up to the gate and once again I requested them to spare us. I told my guys to remain behind me at safe distance and I would be the first to bear the consequences. When we got near the gate I could hear the sound of shattering of glasses of my vehicle coming and I was really scared with the thought of vehicle being set on fire. I was not afraid of beating or lynching by the mob but only this because any damage to government property is subject to judicial proceedings facing which is a kind of humiliation equal to dying every day.
One of the miscreants disturbed my thought and asked us to put our weapons on the ground and to come out One of my guy behind me was about to do so when I ordered him to keep it in his hand. I told the guy firmly that we were not going to detach the weapons from us as they are an integral part of our body, come what may. One of the guys from outside shouted and challenged us to train our guns on them. I told everyone inside and outside the gate that the gun is meant for militants and terrorists and not for unarmed public like them, I won’t do that even if they beat me or kill me. During this melee, one lady from the mob outside the gate seemed little inclined towards me. She came towards me and I noticed it. I addressed her as ‘didi’[sister] and told her to make them understand our plight. Majority of the people were local and carrying machetes and sticks etc. Few of them were engaged in recording our situation on their mobiles, how helpless we were.
I don’t know what happened at that moment and the leaders discussed something and sent us back to hut and they went out of the gate. Not to forget that my mind was still racing for the vehicle. After few minutes, three of the guys came back to hut and one of them told us that they were President and General Secretary of All Assam Adivasi Students Union of Golaghat district and they had understood about our ordeal, but for them, it is tough to keep the mob calm and as they were high on emotions and anger. They told us that it is better if we escape from there for the time being till the normalization of the situation. Now we were on their disposal. They asked us to change our uniforms first which were quite visible from a distance. One of them brought five t-shirts and two sacks. We had put our weapons in one sack and other equipment like bulletproof jackets and helmets in other and change our upper combat shirts with t-shirts I asked him about our official vehicle. He assured that lady whom we talked was their sister and she would look after the vehicle. After this, we broke the rear boundary of that ground and escaped with those guys in a tea garden.
While walking in the garden I got calls from all the offices, colleagues and seniors. Once I tumbled down while talking to a senior but couldn’t leave the mobile so I hit my elbow on a rock, my fellow guys picked me up from the ground while I was still on call. Later my elbow developed a crackling sound forever. After going 500 meters deep inside the tea garden we reached a place which was in-depth and opens. We all set there. It was around 1430 hrs now and we discussed us. I asked the guys why they are on the rampage. One of them told that a Naga CRPF officer deployed in dab area was hand in gloves with the Naga miscreants who had killed their colleagues. I told them that that CRPF is a neutral force and serve the country irrespective of the caste, creed, religion and region and the officer they are talking about is one of the finest officers of CRPF. Luckily I was having a text message which was passed on to me after going through the hierarchy. It was meant for that particular situation instructing all the CRPF personnel deployed in that district and it was ‘ CRPF will not fire on the public at any cost ‘. I showed them that message which was in my phone and had been forwarded to me by my boss as I was performing the duties of staff officer and supposed to instruct all the units under jurisdiction i. e. in six districts of upper Assam. When they saw that message it worked like a miracle. Those leaders rang their various groups who were involved in riots and asked them not to harm any CRPF personnel whatsoever. They also told us that the mob especially the tribal hardly listen to them when on a rampage. I was also worried about our vehicle and was asking continuously now and then and in return, he was asking his sister who was guarding that.
When we were thinking that the situation was going to get normal we were proved wrong. The news arrived on one of the leader’s phones that police had fired on the mob and had killed six civilians. Section 144 was imposed which prohibits assembling of 5 or more persons at one place and if it happens police could use the force. The leader who got the news told us that the situation was now more grave and if someone found us then we would not be spared at all and implementation of section 144 had least to do any deterrence to the mob as most of them were illiterate and didn’t understand the law and they had the attitude that if the police would harm them they also had to take care of them afterwards as well, for food and treatment. So, in any case, they would be the guests of police. Meanwhile, le I got the call from my boss, who politely asked me, ‘is everything alright”. Keeping my nerves intact I replied as gently ‘yes sir and we will reach in an hour or so’. . My boss instructed me to reach as soon as possible.
By 1700hrs it started drizzling and we took refuge in a tea garden labourer’s hut. They made sitting arrangements for us. There was strong urge to have a cup of tea so I asked the guys with us to make some and offer them the money as well but they refused money and instead served us tea and parathas which tasted like never before even in the time of crisis. We had our tea and parathas and thanked them. More people from other huts came to see us. We kept on talking till1900 hrs. I asked our perpetrators cum rescuers when we were going to leave. The guys told me that they are analyzing the situation and would leave only if 100 % sure for the safety of us and them. After some time they said that we could leave but through the interiors of tea garden instead of the main highway i.e. NH 39. They offered us to escort us till Mizo battalion camp at a distance of around 15 km. Our vehicle was still in that house. Now we were approximately 1 km away from that house. I asked the guy if they know how to drive and after receiving affirmation I gave the keys of the vehicle to him instead of my driver, to bring it as I was still apprehensive of the situation. He brought the vehicle which he told was submerged in the ground due to heavy rains and slushy ground. They took the help of locals to get it out.
They took four bikes and escorted us through the muddy terrain inside the tea garden. Some luck was there as the headlights of the vehicle were still intact and working, which we surely required in that area. After an hour or so we reached the Mizo battalion camp which was established to guard one of the prominent tea gardens of an influential person. Our escorting team bade us goodbye and returned and I thanked them from the bottom of my heart. The camp in charge was informed before our arrival. The Subedar Major of the camp welcomed us and offered us food and bed, but being a hardcore vegetarian I politely refused whereas all my guys ate devotedly. I had tea instead. It was around 8.30 pm and I again got the call from my boss. I requested him that we would stay in the camp and would return early morning as it was quite late and we were safe in the camp. But he ordered that we had to return that day only at any cost that too safely. I asked my security guys who were in the mood to stay, to get ready. I requested the camp Subedar to escort us to the nearby CRPF camp i.e. Chowkihola which lies in another district and was around 20 km from there. He obliged but on the condition to provide fuel for their vehicle. I assured him that it will be done from our CRPF camp, Chowkihola.
He sent an escort with us till Chowkihola where we reached by 11 pm. The camp was commanded by an inspector of 20 battalions of CRPF and informed him about us. Staying there for a few minutes we left for our camp, The roads were clear and after a few minutes, we were on NH39 i.e the main road in Karbi Anglong district. Thoughts were racing in my mind. Everyone was happy. Soles of my shoes were detached and were hanging. I threw them from moving vehicle. I took off my soiled uniform shirt and threw it too. The wind blowing was giving the impression of freedom. At around 0100 hrs we reached the campus through gate no. 1 reserved for officers only to avoid any attention in other ranks on seeing our condition. After reaching in my quarter I asked everyone to sit and made tea for them. I also informed the control room about our arrival. After some light heart talks with my guys and motivating them we departed to our respective quarters.
The sleep was miles away from me. I couldn’t get a wink. The trauma was too strong. Somehow the night passed and I got the call from my boss at 0500 hrs on internal phone. . It was expected by me so I keep my nerves intact and replied to him. He asked me whether everything is alright, had we got any injury and damage if any. I replied that only a little damage to the vehicle. He asked me to get it repaired immediately and asked me to meet him in his office at 0800 hrs. I sent the vehicle for repair and spent Rs. 10000 from my pocket to avoid any official paperwork. I went to the office as usual with a smile on my face and head held high as nothing happened. I thank all my colleagues once again and also called those saviours to my camp for a feast. It was a new lease of life and it still gives me goosebumps after so many years.
My sojourn came to an end in May 2017 when I got transferred to Ayodhya, Uttar Pradesh.

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The True Nationalism

India is a country of 135 crores citizens and one thing that binds us is the spirit of nationalism across the country. People are divided by religions, caste, creed, regions, and languages but of late the sense of nationalism is at its peak. We celebrate Republic Day and Independence Day every year with great pomp and show worldwide. The might of India is shown to the world through tableaus and parade and it is always considered the matter of pride for the largest democracy in the world.
Being a veteran from one of the largest paramilitaries in the world I am writing this on the eve of our 72nd Republic Day as I felt that it is the responsibility of every citizen to contribute to the progress of the nation not only of the defence, paramilitary and state forces. How can we contribute even if as we are the ordinary citizen? Even you need not go to the front to fight the external enemies or the anti-national elements within. I felt that honesty is the thing which can take this country to the heights where it deserved. What I mean by honesty is honesty to yourself, honesty to your fellow citizens, honesty to your superiors and honesty to your legal profession for which you are being paid for. The forces are taking care of the external enemies and anti-national elements keeping their families and folks away at the disposal of other citizens of the nation. If we just raise the slogans for them and at the same time duping their families in day to day life doesn’t do justice to the spirit of nationalism.
One more thing I want to touch is the growing cases of indiscipline in the forces. It’s based on my experience of more than two decades. Whenever I used to deal with such cases as an officer the first and the foremost question I always asked that whether you are been recruited in the force for doing such act. Are you happy in sharing this to your family and friends who are feeling proud that you are serving the country with all your blood and bones? The answer would always be negative obviously. I end up in awakening many such dolts who turned out to be the best in their units but failed miserably sometimes even applying all tricks in my book. That has many other factors
Hence my friends the spirit of nationalism doesn’t lie in just celebrating Republic Day and Independence Day every year or raising slogans but to do that in spirit also, how best we can contribute to the nation and the society. Everyone needs not to go to the border or hinterland to prove his or her spirit.

Dear Citizens, remember charity starts at home. First set the house in order. If you want the nation,the government and others to do good to you start doing from the zero level. If someone helped you ,help others. If you are educated ,spread it to others. If you are seeking your Rights , do right to others. Jai Hind Jai Bharat.

THE TRUE NATIONALISM

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